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5 Stages of Friendship Love

Stage One
We've just been introduced. There is an awkward silence. You fidget, as if you shouldn't be here. I can't help but feel apprehensive. You stare at the floor and back to my face, as if wanting to say something but decided not to. I stare at my hands, feeling my ears grow hot. On the other hand, the other members had already started chatting, so they don't notice our silence. Somehow, I felt bad. I tried to say something, but you have already muttered "I'm going to the toilet." I slumped back into my seat, and fiddled with my handphone trying to be busy. I hoped our next meeting will be better.

Stage Two
We meet coincindentally on the street. At one glance, you could tell I'm feeling blue. Without further ado, you brought me to a local funfair, bringing me on various rides. Your chatter washed over me like a cool summer breeze. We blended in the crowd, acting like children without responsibilities. For the first time in a month, I felt really relaxed. I could not help but get caught by your laughter. I had thought that it would be annoying, but I'm glad i'm wrong.

Stage Three
It had been three months since we had a break. I originally planned on resting at home and making up an excuse when you called me, but I recalled your help when I was feeling sad. And I'm so relieved that I went. You sounded normal and I thought that the beach was a weird place to meet. Yet when I found you, you were different. Even though you tried to cover up, your usual liveliness wasn't there. I tried to find out, but you didn't want to tell me. So I placed a reassuring hand on your head and said "tell me when you want to then." You went totally quiet and I thought it was something I said. I gave you a hug to try to cover up the silence. When I was about to pull away, your muffled voice in my shoulder said "Can I stay like this for a while more?" I ruffled your hair and we stayed like that until the next morning.

Stage Four
Things have started to get really busy for NewS again. We are pretty much bonded as a group, although we don't go out together. We are always in a pair. Although I wouldn't mind if I went out with other members other then you. "Ne, Shige-" "Shige!! Help me style my hair!" Tegoshi whined. Everyone knows better then to cross Tegoshi. He'll think up all sorts of ways to "get your attention", no matter how embarrassing or dangerous. " Sorry Keii-chan." I grimaced. "Hai, hai, coming..."

After I finished styling Tegoshi's hair, I went to find you. "What did you want to tell me-" "Hey, Yamapi and Ryo, can I eat with you?" "Eh?But Keii-chan-" "Come on Shige~ Eat with us... and spread the member ai <3">
"Otsukare~" Everyone was tired. " Keii chan let's go home toge-" "Can I hitch a ride? Thanks." Before I knew it, I was alone with Yamapi and Ryo. Something happened. But I couldn't place why I felt like I was bursting. I didn't sleep well that night.

Stage Five
And before I knew it, it was morning and I was late for team practice. It turns out that Keii-chan was late too. " Morning." I was but greeted by your cold exterior. "Is everything all right?" You studied the buttons in the elevator, so obviously ignoring me. "Did something happen? Hey!" You rushed out the elevator and I had to practically run after you. "Hey wait up!" I grabbed your arm forcefully and pinned you to the wall. " Why are you avoiding me? Just what did I do?" "Why do you care? Let me go!" You struggled and managed to get out. We burst into the room. "Oi! Listen to me." "Leave me alone!" I grabbed your arm. "Not until you tell me what's wrong!" You suddenly aimed a punch at me. I could have dodged it but I didn't. I waited for the blow so you'll lessen your anger. But It never came and Yamapi had grabbed your hand and the rest of the members had tried to prevent further fighting. I muttered "I'm sorry." and went to get ready. For the rest of the day, the morale was somewhat forced. I couldn't help be think that if they didn't interfere, maybe your punch could have knocked some sense into me. We didn't have any form of contact for two weeks.

Epilogue
The atmosphere was really tense even after one month. And I realised that during that one month, I didn't do anything that was useful.
"Oi Pi-chan." "Uhm." Then I was dragged to in front of Keii-chan. "What?" I looked around for clarification. "Shige will apologise to you." Massu appeared out of nowwhere. The four members stared expectantly at Shige. "Oi Koyama, you're supposed to listen." Ryo roughly pulled out the earphones. You looked at me with the world's hurt in your eyes. Before I could stop myself, words started to tumble out of my mouth. "I am really sorry if my actions or words had hurt you. Looks like I'm really vain, unable to say sorry. Other then you, I've never been really to speak my mind, but it seems I've gone too far this time." I could feel my face wet with tears. "Voicing out my selfish opinions without caring for your feelings. You're the only one who would keep it inside and not say a word. Only you will tolerate my nonsense..." My knees decided that they couldn't support me anymore and I crumpled to the ground. I limply rest one hand on Keii-chan's leg. "Understand what I'm trying to say please..." You wordlessly slide to the floor to embrace me. "Don't worry. I understand." I buried my face in Keii-chan's shoulder and heard "I love you too".
"We'll take a one hour break. Come back here later." Yamapi cheerfully announced and herded everyone out.

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Kato Shigeaki. 1987.07.11
Koyama Keiichiro 1984.05.01
Tegoshi Yuuya 1987.11.11
Masuda Takahisa 1986.07.04
Yamashita Tomohisa 1985.04.09
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Ueda Tatsuya 1983.10.04
Tanaka Koki 1985.11.05
Nakamaru Yuichi 1983.09.04
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