「もしも明日　世界が　なくなったらどうする？」

You looked so disappointed when I couldn't reply. Was there a special answer you wanted to hear? I can't help but feel my heart crumble when your face went blank. Somehow with my thoughtless words, you seemed to become fainter. "Being inarticulate, I am unable to express what I want to say" was my first thought. But, what had I really wanted to express then? I couldn't even understand myself. This realisation scared me. I caught myself blanking out while thinking about this. I want to give you a proper answer. The distance between us grows. I want to stop it before it becomes a chasm that I will never be able to cross again. As we meet to go home together like always, the silence that surrounds us resounds in my head. I clench my hand hard enough to leave marks. I need to say something. I have to. Before I lose something that is so very dear to me.
At rehearsals you speak only when you are spoken to and when you need to. Somehow the other members are oblivious that you are not your usual cheery self. Listening to Yamapi's humming of Gomen ne Juliet, I asked myself " Is it really like that?" I want... to change that. Colours... you were humming. Reflexively I pulled you to a secluded place.
My answer... even though I have no idea how to express myself, I will try to make you understand, as long as you can smile again for me. "My answer to your question.... I..." My heart leaped when his eyes flickered for a moment. "the colours we see with our eyes are actually the result of things absorbing and reflecting light. The light which we see with our eyes is divided according to its wavelength into red, orange, yellow, green, blue and violet. For example, an apple appears red because it reflects the red light which has a long wavelength, while absorbing the other colors. To make it short, the colours we see with our eyes is actually the light which is being disliked and told, "I won't pick you up! Go away!" The colours of things are made up of disliked light, and if they had a different color, it would make me feel sick. You wouldn't like if people were blue all over, would you. We've come to take the colors for granted which make up the world around us. The light which is disliked by all things is loved by us, it is changed into something necessary which we cannot live without. Being influenced by the disliked light that we see with our eyes, colors are really something tricky.I like pictures of the sky. The blue that sky and sea dislike makes us feel incredibly calm. The sky in the middle of the night shows us a brilliant moon by disliking black. The light which I dislike, how does it paint me? It would be great if I disliked a beautiful "color". Because you do, and I will spend whatever's left of my life with you."

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Kato Shigeaki. 1987.07.11
Koyama Keiichiro 1984.05.01
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