ok. i'll admit that i am pressured.
i'll admit that it is hard for me to cope.
i'll admit that now is different.
because the responsibility is really a significant difference.
i cannot afford to breakdown everytime i feel frustrated because i definitely will feel frustrated when there are so many conflicting ideas and thoughts.
i definitely will feel frustrated due to the everchanging influences.
also because there are always IDIOTS near me.
i cannot do anything about them.
although they are bordering and bothering my life, they are just puny insects which i have to live with.
after all, the optimum balance in the society is modeled after an iceberg: one is to nine.
they have to be the "nine" at the bottom.
the unbalanced iceberg will also implode, hence i should just treat them the way they deserved to be treated.
i'll acknowledge that they are humans.
but they are the lesser beings that corrode the society.
after all, if there isn't a side which good can be compared to, how would one know that something is actually good?
hence the opposites are formed.
why separate black and white?
so that the grey line will always be my source of entertainment.
and the grey line is to explain the death and life analogy.
but death is hard to define, as resurrection does not exist.
then, how would you know that the person is considered dead?
couldn't it be the person be in the comatose state eternally?
how can we define ourselves as living?
we do not know of being dead.


and this is also why, there are "dead people walking."
they are the eight-ninth of the society.

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