Chapter 1
pairing: ryopi
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Nobody knows this story, but I’ll tell it to you slowly. I can feel the hesitation of your heart, but I will give my everything to remove it. Everything.
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It was twilight. The sun was not exactly setting, but it was not really night either. There was a cool breeze. It rippled through his hair. I reached and touched it. He smiles, just acknowledging my touch. I move closer, and put my hand on his waist. He pulls me closer, and we are pressed close together, alone on the beach. It is peaceful, and it was almost deserted. It is getting dark. I wonder if he wants to leave. I look at his closed eyes. I traced his lips. He does not move. His face is a permanent smile. I leaned, resting my head against his collarbone. Then he carries me, but I am not startled by his actions. We headed back to his car. He does not say anything. It is almost eerily quiet now. Somehow I am afraid to speak and break his tranquil silence. I can’t see his face; the car is too dark. I stare at his back. I did not notice him looking at me through the rear view mirror until we stopped at a red light. I am startled, but how his eyes glimmer, with emotion which I cannot place. I almost spoke, but I stopped. I did not know why I stopped.
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At his house, it was empty. Surgically clean and unbearably clean. This was the first time I felt scared. He seems… empty too. Just the shell left behind. Did I do anything wrong? I am almost afraid to disobey him. He hands me a towel. I take it meekly, and went to bathe. Surprisingly, he enters too. Usually he has to chase me out. It was unusual for him to come.
“You forgot your clothes.”
“Oh, thanks,”
I feel my cheeks hot. I am disappointed with the outcome, but relieved at the same time.
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A hand. On my lap. Moving. I try to swat it away, but my hands felt like lead. I put in more effort and discover that my hands are tied up. I am blindfolded. I struggle, trying to shout. I was unsuccessful.
“Don’t move, you’ll hurt yourself.”
Yamapi? He sounds drunk. I stop moving. I whimper; it hurts. Did it hurt this much before? I start to move myself, but is held back. This feeling is unbearable, yet I find myself highly aroused. I move to his rhythm. I shouldn’t be doing this. I should help him. But my body disobeys me. Sounds of pleasure escapes from me. I want more. He knows all my weak spots. I want release.
"Not yet."
He speaks, as if he can read my mind. My breath is ragged now, and his hand is too sensous.
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It's morning. I ache all over, and remember, and blushed. It was unusual for me, to be so easily lured into showing my weak sides. I don't sense him. The window to the balcony is open. A gentle breeze floats in; I want to see him. I find a letter, which I did not read. Where is he?
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>>>>> chapter 1 end <<<<<

Labels: fic, ryopi

yay exams are officially over ;D

Labels: random

Yuhan's murder fic --> my inspiration --> song/poem
:D enjoy~ i need a title harhar. critique also can :D

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Moments are just a touch of time that we spend together
Yet they are what I love most as they are forever
Though the cynical you may argue eternity is impossible
You still promise me wholeheartedly “forever”

Seven days and seven nights of a week together
Spending one second apart from you makes my heart a-flutter
You can’t help but smile at my childish behaviour
I don’t mind for I love your laughter

If only now I could start over
This regret that I for a moment not hold you dear
Haunts me day night whenever
The conclusion is only you I revere

Why did I not cherish the time we had instead
Why did I take it for granted
But it is too late for sorrys
It is too late to turn back
It is too late for you have gone

My efforts of getting closer were for naught
Dashed easily by your single swift action
No time for a salacious goodbye
You have left my heart here to die

Now this circle has come to an end
Till the end of time this story will stand
Where the winner, none
And the loser everyone.
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Labels: song/poem

woo. yuhan gave me a nice idea for poem/song ;D which was coupled by me incurable hatred and boredom ;D
>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<< If the time could stop

Asking for the time to stop
Wanting the impossible
Dreading the present
Driven by a childish fear.

Feeling none the better
When the next day drew near
Cuz it was just the start of the other
An empty day to endure.

If the time could really stop
If I was granted my wish
If I really had time
Would it really suffice?

You were already gone
And I am all alone
You were already gone
Nothing for me will resume
You were already gone
And taken my heart with you
If only you were still here
This time I will say “I love you”

Asking for the time to stop
Is equal to painting the sun blue
Hating every single moment
Lost in the crowd alone.

For every other thing I hold dear
Now I relinquish it
Cuz it was all the things you gave me
I do not deserve it.

Only you make me really happy
Only you can fully control
Only you make me aware
Isn’t it too late for me?

They say Time will heal
I seriously doubt it
They say Time will heal
Why isn’t it working for me?
They say Time will heal
How long would that be?
If only you were still here
This time I will say “I love you”
>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<

Labels: song/poem

i just realised that ryo's shirt says is godd dead? o.o

Labels: random

it's a reconstruction!
no really. the picture's in middle of making what ever. haha.

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小山さん、誕生日おめでと！
So, to celebrate i shall watch some show with koyama in it~
Shige enjoy yourself tonight
i mean, koyama have fun! :D ryo stop bullying him for a while haha.

Labels: birthday, boysloveLOVE, shige love

yay it's NEWS! I like to make pretty boys gay.
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I must be positive.
I'm a paedophile.
I want UEDA. My HIME!!

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