ok. i'll admit that i am pressured.
i'll admit that it is hard for me to cope.
i'll admit that now is different.
because the responsibility is really a significant difference.
i cannot afford to breakdown everytime i feel frustrated because i definitely will feel frustrated when there are so many conflicting ideas and thoughts.
i definitely will feel frustrated due to the everchanging influences.
also because there are always IDIOTS near me.
i cannot do anything about them.
although they are bordering and bothering my life, they are just puny insects which i have to live with.
after all, the optimum balance in the society is modeled after an iceberg: one is to nine.
they have to be the "nine" at the bottom.
the unbalanced iceberg will also implode, hence i should just treat them the way they deserved to be treated.
i'll acknowledge that they are humans.
but they are the lesser beings that corrode the society.
after all, if there isn't a side which good can be compared to, how would one know that something is actually good?
hence the opposites are formed.
why separate black and white?
so that the grey line will always be my source of entertainment.
and the grey line is to explain the death and life analogy.
but death is hard to define, as resurrection does not exist.
then, how would you know that the person is considered dead?
couldn't it be the person be in the comatose state eternally?
how can we define ourselves as living?
we do not know of being dead.


and this is also why, there are "dead people walking."
they are the eight-ninth of the society.

Kizuna

What is love… it feels long since I have felt such a word.
Trusting each other, caring for each other…
Feelings that bond…
Working hard together for an unknown future…

So fragile…



And easily destroyed.
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Shige woke to the incessant ringing of his mobile. A message from him had arrived, at last. It was three in the morning. Looking at the screen blearily, he thought he had misread the name. But it is his, Yamashita Tomohisa.

Sorry for waking you up, but filming just ended. I missed you.

He didn’t misread the name. It is his, his lover, now. No longer belonging to another, finally his. Shige clumsily keyed in his message and was wide awake, waiting for the next to come through. It came after a minute.

There were horrible parts. The horrible parts were that you weren’t around.

Shige grinned into his pillow, fantasizing it was him he was hugging. He texted back, but received a phone call almost immediately after he sent the message.
“Ok,” was the cool voice. Tired, hoarse from the many takes, but still liquid to Shige’s ears.

“B-but you haven’t even read my message,” Shige croaked, feeling shattered and displaced next to this calm man.

“I read your mind,” he said, as three knocks sounded.

Shige jumped off the bed and raced to the door. His dog was woken by the sudden presence of the other man, but did no more than flap one ear and closed her eyes.

“Gomen Nana-chan,” he whispered, and patted her head, and Shige also wished for the same treatment.

Yamapi gestured Shige to follow him into the room, so they will not be interrupted.

“Mhmm… this place is the most comfortable,” Yamapi rested his head on Shige’s lap and snuggled.

Shige gracelessly brushed away Yamapi’s hair from his face, but Yamapi did not seem to mind.

“It’s so comfortable… I’m going to fall asleep,” Yamapi yawned, an act which Shige gawked at, still constantly awed by, although he had seen this many times. Then Yamapi raised his head and kissed Shige on the lips and smiled. Then his eyes slowly closed; a tranquil face was left.

Shige is very sure he loves this man.
When morning came, he was gone from his lap, and Shige was lying flat on the bed. He got up, half believing it to be a dream. Then he heard Nana-chan barking enthusiastically and the door opening.

“Ah, you’re awake.” Yamapi tossed the keys on the table and joined in the hug Nana-chan was giving her master.

“Mhmm.” Shige couldn’t say anything intelligent when he was with Yamapi. “Why are you up so early?”

“Let’s sleep together then,” Yamapi stared lustily at Shige and cornered him so he fell and Yamapi was on top of him.

”uh…” Shige was then interrupted by Nana-chan who wanted to join in. She wriggled in between the both of them and barked twice.

Then she licked Shige’s face vigorously and Shige ended laughing. He lost his balance and fell off the floor.

“Itai… Nana-chan?” Shige picked himself up from the floor and looked around him. Nana-chan had a leash around her neck. His bedroom was a mess. He went out to the living room and saw the keys on the table. “So was it a dream?” Shige took a shower and pondered.
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NEWS had dance practice today, and Shige always had the hardest time following, but today, he caught it pretty quickly. He turned with a slight hip movement and a flourish which was met with applause from Tegoshi and Massu.

“You’ve improved a lot, Shige!” Massu grinned.

“That’s right… You’re dancing like Yamapi…” Tegoshi had a wistful look on his face.

“Nah… Compared to him, this time could be luck. Anyway, he taught me a lot,” Shige thumbed a finger at Yamapi who was walking out the door.

Tegoshi and Massu looked at each other and shrugged. “If you say so. We’re going off to practice now. See you later.” Massu and Tegoshi then turned and walked off to another room.

Just then, Koyama came bounding up to Shige.

“Ne, have you seen Ryo-chan? He forgot his handphone.”
“Handphone?” Shige stared at the empty hand Koyama put out. “Uh, are you feeling ok? Ryo-chan… Ryo-chan has gone almost six months ago…”

“Six months? What are you talking about? Don’t be funny, Shige.” Koyama frowned at Shige’s insensitivity. “If you don’t know then say so.” Koyama stomped off, leaving Shige alone and bewildered.
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That night, Nana-chan behaved peculiarly. She seemed to shrink away from Shige as he approached. In the end, Shige gave up and put her dinner and left her alone. When he came back, the food was gone and Nana-chan was nowhere to be found.
“She must be hiding somewhere.” Shige muttered to himself, feeling hurt. He messaged Yamapi about it and hoped he would get the message and stay over. He waited for 2 hours; it was twelve midnight, already a new day. Shige decided to sleep and forget about it. He wasn’t one to say things directly like… Ryo. Which reminds him of Koyama. Koyama mentioned Ryo after six months. He didn’t talk much about him after that incident. Shige knew about their relationship after they returned from Hawaii. There was a huge incident before Ryo had passed on. Koyama and Shige had separated a little, and were not as close as they had been before.

Koyama confessing to Shige, and Shige didn’t know whether to choose between his best friend or him. In the end he sorted out his feelings after Ryo brought Koyama away for a while. From Yamapi, he found out that he had a similar incident. Ryo confessed to Yamapi, but left the decision up to Yamapi. Just like him and Koyama. That happened almost two years ago. Then the unfortunate incident changed Koyama. Even Tegoshi and Massu, everyone who knew Ryo in JE; they had learnt not to speak of the incident when Koyama is around.

Shige decided that he should start over with Koyama again.

He checked his phone again. One new message appeared. It was Koyama.

“Ryo still did not answer the phone when I called him. Do you know where could he be? His phone is still with me.”

Shige pondered what to reply Koyama. He may be the only one who could tell him the truth about Ryo, but it still required subtlety.

“I’ve told him. He says to pass it to him the next time.”

A white lie never hurt anyone. Shige then slept uneasily. He had a dream. He remembered his first love, muscular and tall for his age. He had tripped in front of that person, and he prevented his fall, catching him in his strong arms. Shige then looked up, and was rudely woken by his alarm clock. He jolted, and checked his phone again. Yamapi had replied. He felt guilty for wanting to see his first love again. It had been in junior high, someone he met in the playground.

Sure. Don’t be late. :)

It was very ordinary, but somehow, it made Shige smile. Shige decided to go early. On his way there, he caught a glimpse of Ryo. But it was impossible! Ryo is gone… for nearly six months. But he seemed solid; people were avoiding him. Shige went after him, hoping to get an explanation. He ran past crowds of people, through the many crows and causing them to flutter.
Ah, a traffic light. He may be able to catch up now.
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Koyama walked behind many blond heads, and then took a short cut. He was going to be late meeting Ryo. His hand phone rang. A new message was received. He flipped open his phone only to get it snatched out of his hands by a hooded person.

Without any ado, Koyama ran after him. The thief did not seem to tire, and did not seem to speed up either. It was as if he was playing a game with Koyama. He was running out of stamina soon.
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Shige could not shout out as he didn’t want to draw attention to him and Ryo. He tried his best to reach him, but he was always one step behind. Then he noticed the path he was going in.
Is he going to the park?
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“Stop! Thief!” Koyama shouted, hoping for help from the surrounding picnickers.

Shige heard the shout, but his mind did not register the words until the person had stopped. Then he saw Ryo, Yamapi and Koyama in front of him.

“What’s going on?” He heard Koyama ask.

Koyama saw Yamapi, Ryo and Shige.

“Isn’t Ryo/Yamapi gone?” Shige and Koyama could not believe their eyes.

They both stared at each other when they heard the words.
Then they both felt a gentle push from behind.

“It’s time for you to wake up, Shige.” Shige heard Yamapi’s transparent voice, and he instantly remembered when he saw Yamapi fading away. Yamapi pushed an object into Shige’s hand, and led him towards Koyama.

Ryo had led Koyama towards him.

“You too, Koyama. Thanks for my phone.” Ryo waved it in the air.
“But it’s time for us to go. Look, Tegoshi and Massu were always very worried about you. Don’t cause them anymore grief.” Yamapi’s words were kinder then Ryo’s next sentences.
“Don’t be a baby and move on.” Then Ryo smiled, which was unlike him. “But don’t forget us.”
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“So both of us were always talking to someone that’s not there?” Shige was the first to speak, his voice full of melancholy.

“They were always on our minds. So I guess we are talking to our minds.”

Then Shige remembered that Yamapi had passed him something.

“Hey, it’s your phone…” Shige passed it to Koyama.

“Ah, Yamapi wanted us to meet? A plot by the both of them to cure our friendship?” Koyama’s eyebrows knitted, and seemed like he wanted to say something.

Then they both spoke at the same time.

“I’m glad we’re friends.”
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end ;D

Labels: fic

1. Which Johnny band is your favourite: i'm not sure at the moment... maybe KAT-TUN

2. Why: ueda is confusing at the moment

3. Who is your favourite Johnny: Ueda pl0x

4. Why: He's quiet and speaks when it's appropriate. He's mostly mature although he is childish at times. I like his smile and the way he works hard at boxing. He does not show off what he knows but obligingly demostrates when asked. Although he has a mysterious exterior, he gives off the feel of a reliable friend, one that would not constantly ask worthless questions or say useless things like "are you okay" when you obviously are not. He seems like will just sit next to you and wait until you feel like speaking. Although he's not that type that would provide an answer everytime, he will advise when you ask for it. I guess its one of those personalities i wish to have?

5. When is your very first contact with a Johnny: when i saw yamapi with shirota

6. Who was it: yamapi

7. How did you know him: i didn't. i just heard and assumed.

8. When actually did you really start listening/liking the JE: after NEWS

9. What incident brought you into JE: after i was interested in Shige's randomness

10. Do you have a favourite JE song: Nope. i have many

11. Do you listen to them the most: nope. recently i just switched to KAT-TUN

12. If not, who is your favourite band/artist: Hmm.. junno's voice attracts me at the moment

13. Which band/singer did you listen/like the most before JE: think it was english songs... SimplePlan?

KAT-TUN

14. Who is your favourite in Kat-tun: Ueda. Ueda. Ueda. and I have decided on what to call him when i see him. :D Ue-dan xD

15. Why: scroll up :)

16. Do you have a favourite song of Kat-tun: Signal

17. Do you have a favourite live of Kat-tun: When Ueda wore a seifuku in one of the concerts and when he is over enthusiastic in cartoon KAT-TUN

18. Do you have a favourite show appearance of Kat-tun: when they were in Okinawa with Tokoro George and acting like kids playing with his toys :D

19. Who do you think can sing the best of Kat-tun: Koki though he mostly raps

20. Who do you think can dance the most of Kat-tun: Junno

21. Who is the girliest of Kat-tun: Nakamaru lol opposite from Yuhan xD

22. Who is the manliest of Kat-tun: Koki he's the yakuza big gangster brother :D

23. Who is the cutest member of Kat-tun: Ueda Junno Ue-dan dan dan dan~ xD

24. Who is the funniest member of Kat-tun: junno :D i like his lame jokes :D

25. Who is the most prettiest in Kat-tun: UEA-DANNNN

26. Who has the best appearance in Kat-tun: Junno

27. Do you have a favourite PV of Kat-tun: Signal. and Real Face cuz Ueda was *!gasp* with Jin :D

NEWS

27. Who is your favourite in NewS: KoyaShige Shige :D

28. Why: He's really random and i like his ideas. He's quiet. I like his smile :D But i think i rather he and Koyama mix cuz i like both of their personalities :/

29. Do you have a favourite song of NewS: Hoshi wo Mezashite

30. Do you have a favourite live of NewS: Cherish

31. Do you have a favourite show appearance of NewS: Shige stripping :D/Shige being a fish on the bed :D/ Shige being bullied and force fed food :D

32. Who do you think can sing the best of NewS: Yamapi

33. Who do you think can dance the most of NewS: Massu

34. Who is the girliest of NewS: Tegoshi

35. Who is the manliest of NewS: Ryo. he's the alpha male that's really annoying :D

36. Who is the cutest member of NewS: Koyama :D Mama's the best XD

37. Who is the funniest member of NewS: Shige :D

38. Who is the most prettiest in NewS: Shige with long hair

39. Who has the best appearance in NewS: Massu. I like his hats :D Shige: Matches things well. Tego and Yamapi: Looks pretty much nice in everything. Ryo: He's the most normal?

40. Do you have a favourite PV of NewS: Weeeek and SUMMER TIME

Kanjani8

41. Who is your favourite in KanJani8: YamaDa :D and Yokoyama

42. Why: love their jokes :D

43. Do you have a favourite song of KanJani8: Kan-fuu fighting ! :D

44. Do you have a favourite live of KanJani8: YamaDa desu! Yey Yey!

45. Do you have a favourite show appearance of KanJani8: manzai competition in Osaka and yokoyama being hypnotised :D

46. Who do you think can sing the best of KanJani8: actually i have never heard their singles o.O

47. Who do you think can dance the most of KanJani8: Ohkura

48. Who is the girliest of KanJani8: Yassu :D

49. Who is the manliest of KanJani8: Subaru

50. Who is the cutest member of KanJani8: Yassu :D

51. Who is the funniest member of KanJani8: Yokoyama

52. Who is the most prettiest in KanJani8: Yassu XD

53. Who has the best appearance in KanJani8: Ohkura

54. Do you have a favourite PV of KanJani8: Wahaha and Kan-fuu fighting :D fan service xD

Arashi - from here on it will be appearance based cuz i never went into arashi at all lawls

55. Who is your favourite in Arashi: Sho Sakurai

56. Why: I like his name xD

57. Do you have a favourite song of Arashi: eh?

58. Do you have a favourite live of Arashi: see above

59. Do you have a favourite show appearance of Arashi: see above

60. Who do you think can sing the best of Arashi: Nino

61. Who do you think can dance the most of Arashi: Sho

62. Who is the girliest of Arashi: Aiba

63. Who is the manliest of Arashi: Ohno

64. Who is the cutest member of Arashi: Sho

65. Who is the funniest member of Arashi: MatsuJun

66. Who is the most prettiest in Arashi: Aiba

67. Who has the best appearance in Arashi: Ohno

68. Do you have a favourite PV of Arashi: nope

Other Units

69. Who is your favourite younger unit: A.B.C xD

70. Who is your favourite older unit: KinKi Kids

71. Do you have a favourite member of any younger or older unit: KOICHI!

72. Do you have a favourite song of any younger or older unit: Namida, hitohiro

73. Do you have a favourite show with any younger or older unit: Domoto Kyoudai

74. Do you have a favourite live of any younger or older unit: A.B.C's performance is nice although i don't really like their singing :D i prefer their dancing haha

Dramas

75. Do you have a favourite actor in JE: Koichi as Maizu Tsukasa :D

76. Do you have a favourite dorama starring with one of JE: Sushi Ouji and Kakure Karakuri (Shige) and Yamapi in Ikebukuro :D KOYAMA IN KUROSAGI! >D

77. What was your very first dorama staring with one of JE: eh. i think was Nobuta wo Produce

78. Which dorama of JE do you watch recently: the last dorama i watched was Ikebukuro

79. Which dorama of JE do you want to watch: KUROSAGI!

80. Who do you wish would should start acting, who hasn't yet: UEDA. act as my maiden please :D

81. Who do you wish should stop acting, because he sucks at acting or he should do something else instead: Ryo cuz his dramas are boring xD

Questions for fun!

82. Do you think that you are JE addicted: Yep

83. Why do you think so: Ueda.

84. What will you do seeing your favourite Johnny standing in front of your door: grab him by the shoulders and shake him :D screaming his name haha

85. What advantages does starting liking JE give you: a reason to live. a source of entertainment. funny jokes :D

86. What disadvantages does it give you: obesession lawls

87. How many times a day do you think about JE: every single day :D

88. How many times do you have the face of your favourite Johnny around you: over a few hundred :D

89. If your favourite Johnny or your favourite JE has to grant you a wish what would it be: be my really really close brother who lives with me :D

90. If you have a wish about JE, what would it be: inherit from Johnny-san :D

91. If you are reborn, you wish to be who: Junno :D he's tallll and he's great at acrobatics :D

92. If you are a Johnny's right now, who do you wish you are: Kame. I want his fame la. ;D

93. If you can ask your favourite Johnny or your favourite JE band a question, what would it be: wil you go out with me? XD

94. Did you ever had a dream with a Johnny: yea :D Junno my bodyguard lawls...

95. If yes, when was it and what was it? eh... smut? xD i wish la haha

96. Do you have any realizable goal in your life that has to do with JE: STALK KOYAMA! :D i'll camp out at his mum's ramen shop la :D

97. Do you like JE BL fanfic: yesyesyes.

98. If yes, who are the best couple of JE: Koyapi UeGuchi XD

99. If you are Johnny-san what would you change about JE: smoking shots D<

100. Do you like this survey: yea.... i realised that liking someone is easier then trying to define why you like them hahah....

Labels: quiz

ueda! when he cries, he looks so beautiful that i would rather stare then comfort him. i want him close, probably a brother more then anything else.

Labels: ueda love

Rules and Regulation of this quiz:


1) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2) Tag people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people those people must state who they are tagged by &cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.






#If the sky was to drop what would you do?
Hug Ueda until the sky drops.

# If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1. Ueda
2. Kiel come to life
3. Mori come to life

# What will your dream wedding to be like?
4. something exquisite
3. traditional kimono
2. have it in Japan
1. with someone i can spend my life with.

# If there is one thing you can avoid, what is it?
doing pe

# What's your ideal lover like?
1. sensitive
2. humors my childishness
3. as pretty as ueda :D
4. Tall! like 1.8m

Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
if i'm being loved by someone i love :D

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
it depends on the person

# If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
it really depends on the person.

# Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yep.

# Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
yep. longest was only a year and half, but i can't remember who it is anymore.

#Who are currently important people in your life?
friends, family. and idols :D

# Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
duh.

# Can you change the world?
if there's one hundred of me yes.

# What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
i wanted to do this quiz haha koped from yuhan's blog

# What's the first thing you do every morning?
weekdays: "sian got school."
saturdays: "yey great dream"
sundays: "tml got school sian"

# During raining day, would you like a guy to walk with you or to shelter you?
only if the rain is reaally heavy like going to thunderstorm without an umbrella :D

# If you could have a superpower what would it be?
the ability to have many superpowers. i must have a lot so it'll complement mah :D

# What type of friends do you like?
what kind of question is this? you don't be friends with someone you don't like.

# Do you often wish that there is something you could change?
after i do something i'm unsure about.

# What type of friends do you dislike?
what kind of question is this? you don't be friends with someone you don't like. times 2

# If you have only 6 months to live what would you do?
ueda. actually KAT-TUN. NEWS. possibily Kanjani 8. Koichi! and go play with some cute dogs :D and amusement parks.

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If you could choose 10 people in your reverse harem who would it be?

hmmm... in no order of merit :D

1. Ueda
2. Junno
3. Shige
4. Koyama
5. Koichi
6. Tsubasa
7. Yasuda
8. Maruyama
9. Hyde
10. Gackt

Labels: quiz

i come with 2 rhymes :D
ilovelitilovelitilovelit. i rever the arts and loathe the sports. sports make you healthy only if you don't over do it. or the sport does not involve teamwork.

Doll
You are sitting there
Like a prizing winning sculpture
Quiet like the wind
Glacial beauty

Never change for perfection will crumble
Which unearthly grandeur is able to exist
Blessed be those eyes looking
Unseeing

Pure, untainted
By neither black nor white
The twisted logic of society
The painful, whole emotions

Your exterior is enough
To comfort the wails tortured
An unfortunate tool for desire
For reality that is surreal

Cast this veil over and over
Heal those feelings that destroy
The sane mind that seeks sanctuary
In those unseeing eyes

/end.

Cross Over
Where is the beginning and the end
Of the undefined
Of which I’m blind
To purposely not see
But cannot ignore
No matter how much I try?

Must I subject myself
To his decree
To the silence
He bestows only to me
And take it all in
Like it’s a necessity?

I do not know true happiness
For I do not know the sadness
I only know the loneliness
But not the amity

I want to know pain
So as to experience the tenderness
What’s familiar is a blank
Accompanied by total chaos

In this disarray is the equanimity
Like the heart of a hurricane
Where warmth and affection gather
After leaving devastation

Perhaps I need something
To exacerbate this situation
Turning it extreme
Turning it more real
Transforming the negative
Perhaps into something I want to know

Are you listening?



/end.

Labels: ranting, song/poem

Tml is Shige's birthday! So, happy birthday in advance :D
Anyway, I still like you!! No matter how much your hair changes, no matter how much you talk, no matter how idiotic you can be and no matter how much i change my perferences, i still like you! i hope you will pass your law exams quickly with flying colours so you can concentrate on NEWS. Although i know you can do it since you're so smart... :D
but remember to take care! Koyama will help haha...
*sends cats*

ja ne.

ZOMG THANKS SARAH YOU'VE MADE MY DAY AND GAVE ME MOTIVATION TO DO HOMEWORK!

haha he's younger then me o.O

Labels: fangirling

Labels: fangirling

Something's wrong with my computer's internet gah SUGOI DAI-DAI-DAI KIRAI! urusai desu kara.

I need the internet! the fourth best invention after electricity. (1st:electricity. 2nd: aircon. 3rd:computers.)

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Niji by Aquatimez( rainbow) lawls

2. How would you describe yourself?

Nan Nen Tatte Mo by KAT-TUN

o.O has no idea that this's song is about cuz it's new

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?

So Fine, Rocketman by V.West has no idea that this is about either cuz it's my sis's list of songs lols... my computer being DUMB! DDDD<

4.How do you feel today?

WEEEK by NEWS LAWL so true hahahaha! :D

5.What is your life's purpose?

Someday for Somebody by KAT-TUN lawls another true one hahah

6.What is your motto?

Eden by Kanjani8 lawls.... the only eden i know of is that it's a synonym for paradise...

7. What do your friends think of you?

Osaka Rainy Blues by Kanjani8 lols....

8. What do you think of your parents?

ZOMG! it's Cherish by NEWS lawls... ma. ma.

9.What do you think about very often?

Lovin' U BY KAT-TUN lawls... sounds like Jin's kind of song lawls

10.What is 2 + 2?

it's MA.JI.DE. by Subaru from K8 muahahha! :DDD

11.What do you think of your best friend?

LIPS by KAT-TUN XOMFG! ahha.... has no comment to that.

12.What do you think of the person you like?

Ai Ai gasa KARAOKE VERSION.... lawls so sappy sia... so it means that i'll only think about it but not do it cuz it's a minus one track muahaha :D

13.What is your life story?

Taiyou no Kodomo by K8(children of the sun?) lawllawllawl :D i'm getting sunburnt hahas

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?

With Me by NEWS lawls....

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Real Face by KAT-TUN true. true. and it's one of my favourites :D

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?

Funky Town Osaka (F.T.O) by K8 LAWL 8DDDDDDD

17.What will they play at your funeral?

Miso Soup by TegoMasu. ZOmg so... nice liddat hahaha.... kinda fitting anyway...

18.What is your hobby/interest?

Aoku Yasashiku o.O by Kobukuro lawls

19.What is your biggest fear?

it's! Speedy Wonder by K8 what the.... D8

20.What is your biggest secret?

Hoshi wo Mezashite~

21.What do you think of your friends?

Yume Monotagari (Tsubasa's) lawls ._.

22.What will you post this as?

Zukkoke Otokomichi! lawls another one of my favourites haha

23.What song would you play during your first time having sex?

Zutto. woo~ xD not love song or lovexxx or daite senorita ar since my sis listens to it so much lawls

yay it's NEWS! I like to make pretty boys gay.
I want to rule the world.
I must be positive.
I'm a paedophile.
I want UEDA. My HIME!!

iSpeak;

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Kato Shigeaki. 1987.07.11
Koyama Keiichiro 1984.05.01
Tegoshi Yuuya 1987.11.11
Masuda Takahisa 1986.07.04
Yamashita Tomohisa 1985.04.09
Nishikido Ryo 1984.11.03


Ueda Tatsuya 1983.10.04
Tanaka Koki 1985.11.05
Nakamaru Yuichi 1983.09.04
Kamenashi Kazuya 1986.02.23
Taguchi Junnosuke 1984.11.29
Akanishi Jin 1984.07.04


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